emily

square america

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 01:45:43 GMT

I stumbled across an amazing website the other day, it's called Square America.
Here are some of my favorites, but only some:

polaroids + chocolate

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 17:49:53 GMT

made this the other day:

....I wanted to be able to have my polaroids displayed without taping them, or ruining them. I still have way more to put up, but I ran out of staples.

Also, after a recent post by m4g1c4lm3 , I had to make these:

...They were a huge hit! I made them for my mom for her birthday. (Her birthday was the 27th, and they're gone already)

...mmmmmmm

Tommy is coming home sooner than we thought. He'll be here tomorrow night, instead of the 3rd. His grandpa passed away, so he's coming home for the funeral. :(

Also, for your viewing pleasure, here's a video I made a long time ago, and finally got around to putting on youtube.

roooom

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:43:42 GMT

Well, after living back with my parents for over a month now, I'm finally feeling settled.

....sorry, they're kind of big!

they're all uptight

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 06:09:51 GMT

I feel like I really just don't give a shit anymore.
Am I too young to be bitter?

insomnia

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 07:21:53 GMT

Lately, I've found it impossible to fall asleep before 4 a.m.

isn't my little sister's cat adorable?

making things

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 14:04:00 GMT

made this yesterday:

and this:

winter >: (

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 06:48:49 GMT

Feeling a little down in the dumps today. Holding back tears. Tommy is away once again; I'll miss him everyday until he's home. There's always a pain cloud hanging around the few days before he leaves. We both know that he won't be back for a while this time. I never know how much I'll miss him until it's night time and all I want to do is fall asleep with him next to the fire. Sunday morning was really nice. We layed around for a while, and then we all headed over here for breakfast. Smoking bud and eating with friends, and starting our Sunday off right. Blueberry pancakes, bacon, hash browns, eggs. Fruit smoothie with yogurt, strawberries, bananas, blueberries, and peach juice. Delicious. I'm a lucky girl.

I can't wait for spring. Swing sets and pumping your legs and breeze and sunshine. Warm days and cool nights and back road drives. Rebirth and green and short sleeves and rain. Trips into the city and garage sales. Bare feet and long walks and calluses. Birds and crickets and frogs.

I just want to open the windows and let in the sun and warm wind. I want to spray paint stuff outside.
I think along with warm weather Lauren and I will start making more things. We made a few things throughout the winter, but the cold brings on a kind of laziness. After a while the snow is uninspiring and boring- the novelty wears off. Although, I have to admit our place is pretty cozy.

Virginiaaa

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 16:11:33 GMT

I'm a big bag full of happiness.
It's refreshing falling asleep in someone's arms and waking up to kisses on the face. I like Tommy a whole lot. He treats me good, and fills my head with the nicest words. He calls me beautiful, and even though I don't agree, he insists, and says he thinks I should hear it at least once a day.
We took the metro into D.C. the other day. I could've stayed on it all day. We got off near the Smithsonian, and walked around in all the different museums. The art museum was my favorite. Each place was so huge, we couldn't have stopped and looked at everything, or it would have taken all day.
The city looks so beautiful at night. There's so much to take in. It was cold the couple days that we went into D.C., but it's been so warm yesterday and today! There's no snow. It's been raining a little, but you don't even need a coat to go outside.
I come home on Sunday. I'm getting on the train at 3pm, and should be getting into Toledo by 5am Monday. People tell me there's tons of snow in Michigan right now. I'm not looking forward to that, but I can't wait to see my loves. I'm going to build a snowman with Lauren, and we're going to make Christmas cookies with Boyd. I'm going to see how Kyle's doing on his bass- he says he's getting a lot better, and I don't doubt it one bit.
I still have to take care of the wedding photos, and get my money from that. Then, I'm going to do a ton of Christmas shopping.
I'm tired of Mott's bullshit. I paid my fee, and figured out all my classes. I had it all set up, with the days and times that I wanted and everything. When I went to register for them online, an error came up saying that I needed permission from my high school. I called, and apparently since I was dually enrolled while I was in high school, I have to register all over again as a new student. They said I have to do it in person, so now I can't register until I get home, which isn't a big deal, as long as they still have my classes available.

us

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 18:12:25 GMT

Once there was a place called planet earth. There were times of light, and times of dark. It was full of life.

Greed for paper killed spirits. Jealousy and need for revenge spoiled love. Attention was focused on mundane things instead of the whole. Hate flourished, and peace was rarely present. Natural beauty either went unrecognized, or was destroyed for convenience. Fear and guilt were instilled into babies. Misinformation and propaganda spread amongst humans, and stupidity began to flood their bodies. Oceans were seen as a way to separate, dividing the world apart. Personal beliefs were judged. Lives were labeled. Income determined class. Kindness and common courtesy was faked. Wisdom and knowledge were under appreciated. Originality was swept off the face of the earth; individuality was criticized. Talent was overlooked and impersonation became the popularity. Words were twisted, brains were bent, minds were molded, decisions were swayed. People could not settle. Robots replaced labor, machines replaced man kind. People stopped listening, and millions of things went unheard. Intolerance and impatience became more common than compassion. Bitterness was easier than forgiveness. Simplicity was no longer enjoyable, people needed more. The need to survive took the place of reward for working. Humans acted like the animals they were killing. Rights were denied. Blood was shed, and families were destroyed over disagreements. Numbness swept over sensitivity. The general public walked around in a daze, became dumbfounded. Became shameless.

But eventually, their light burned up, so their world died out. The plants turned brown, became dry and brittle, and disappeared. The people's bodies divided and decomposed until they were nothing. The hatred left their souls and dissolved in the atmosphere. Their cities crumbled. The earth became stone until it folded into itself.

[no subject]

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 02:11:02 GMT

2006 / 2008
i used to be a lot cuter.

I can't help but feel like I'm always second best with everyone. People don't make the time to hang out with me, they call me when there isn't anything better to do. This is extremely inconvenient for me, seeing as how I get lonely easily. It's not that I can't be content with myself, or that I'm bored- I have no problem keeping myself occupied; I just take comfort in knowing that I'm an important part in people's lives. Funny that, when I was staying in Davison, everybody was upset that I wasn't around. Now I'm home. I don't have to be missed anymore, so what is different? Why am I constantly being left out?

By the way, I'm going to Washington DC for a little while. Miss me, or don't.

[no subject]

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 05:54:00 GMT

Now Ive been happy lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun
Now Ive been smiling lately, thinking about the good things to come
And I believe it could be, something good has begun

i think i'm out of the weird funk i was in for like a week.

i've got a cold, and i'm going to go take a nice hot bath after i finish my coffee.

miss you.

f---- youuuu

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 16:50:06 GMT

I rarely think about you anymore, and I don't care.
I got the shit end out of everything, but I don't care about that either.

Tommy is home from D.C. right now.

Smoking too many cigarettes lately.

All Smiles

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 04:54:52 GMT

I'm alive; I'm happy and healthy. Time is flying past me. Weeks go by, and seem to only amount to a few days.
Brandon is at work, I miss him even when I'm with him. Cody is in the kitchen making me a brat!

Rothbury

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 05:14:53 GMT

I've decided I live in the wrong town.

we're leaving in a couple hours for rothbury. i'm going to be tired as fuck, but whatev.

birthday

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 04:16:40 GMT

Yesterday it was my birthday. I hung one more year on the line. I should be depressed- my life's a mess; But I'm havin' a good time. Oh, I've been lovin', and lovin', and lovin'. I'm exhausted from lovin' so well. I should go to bed, but a voice in my head says, "Ah, what the hell. Have a good time." Paranoia strikes deep in the heartland, but I think it's all over done. Exaggerating this, exaggerating that- they don't have no fun. I don't believe what I read in the papers, they're just out to capture my dime. I aint worryin', and I aint scurrying, and I'm havin' a good time. Maybe I'm laughing my way to disaster. Maybe my race has been run. And, maybe I'm blind to the fate of man kind, but what can be done? So, god bless the goods we was given, and god bless the u.s.-of a. And god bless our standard of livin', and lets keep it that way- and we'll all have a good time.

attention!

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 23:49:16 GMT

I think you're fake, and you should probably do something about that before you turn into more of a creep. You're life seems to be spent following a trend. This time, you're obviously going for the "Hey, I'm an indie kid that loves God, and I like to take shitty pictures and paint shitty paintings" look. But listen, you're not impressing anyone. And, maybe instead of praying for love and happiness, you should pray to your god to forgive you for making a mockery of his religion. So, hey- grow some balls, cut the crap, and quit using the Christian image to impress chicks. Throw your hands up and sing! Rejoice! Hallelujah! Amen! The end. Whatever.
And, if you think this is about you, it probably is.

On a lighter note, my birthday is in 4 days, and I'm going to have a good time.

Oh, and I love my best friend.

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 18:48:35 GMT

You'd better get busy, though, buddy. The goddamn sands run out on you every time you turn around. I know what I'm talking about. You're lucky if you get time to sneeze in this goddamn phenomenal world.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 05:17:32 GMT

haha.

Fri, 30 May 2008 06:59:58 GMT

I feel good.

Fuckin' huge omelet!

"All we are is dust in the wind..." hahaha.

shut up, it was windy. reallly windy.

LOL @ my face. haha.

"He's got the whole world in his hands"

Hugest gumball machine I've ever seen.

I was having a lot of fun on that carousel, obviously.

You couldn't tell where the water ended and the sky began.

stoned.

Up in a lighthouse.

yeah, we had a good time.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 06:36:37 GMT

"But, where was it when I first heard that sweet sound of humility? It came to my ears in the goddamn loveliest melody. How grateful I was then, to be part of the mystery- to love and to be loved. Let's just hope that is enough."

I'm expecting the results from my GTT pretty soon. The test was long, boring, and emotionally draining. Being in a white room with fluorescent lights for five hours is no walk in the park. In total, the doctor's pricked my vein 10 times for their tests. Fuckers. I will be much more content once I get all of this seizure business out of the way.

I visited my parents' house today. My dad has filled my old room with his speaker collection. I miss all of my things. I miss my cat. I can't wait until Lauren and I get a bigger place, so I can surround myself with my stuff. I'm materialistic, even if I try not to be.

Lately, I've felt like shit / looked like shit. I'm letting myself go. I don't eat enough. I don't sleep. I smoke. I clean. I walk. I drive. My back aches. My feet hurt. My arm is punctured and bruised. My brain is weary. My hair is dirty. My body is constantly tired; My mind won't let it rest.

I'm learning to disregard people's lies and phony attempts at redemption. I refuse to acknowledge immaturity. It's not worth my time, effort, trouble, or heartache. The chain of events that have happened in the last couple of months have left me hostile, bitchy, stubborn, and impatient. I've been disappointed. I've lost trust; I'm doubtful.

Whatever.

whack nigs eat hydro budz!

million.

"If seeing is believing, then believe that we have lost our eyes."

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 17:19:08 GMT

Sometimes I wish I could become a tiny ball of happiness and energy, and flood everyone I love with my positive spirit. Then, the feeling would fill them, and they could be intoxicated all the time with a sense of bliss.

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 02:55:27 GMT

naps, talks, quitting smoking, belly kisses, good music.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 02:28:52 GMT

i miss you already;
this is silly.

"Because when the ride's done, the hopes that you have carried- they fall out from your hands back to the ground. Live with that. Learn as the drugs leave. Learn as you lose it. You will. The haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday."

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 10:30:12 GMT

i really just can't wait to feel the sun on my skin.

sometimes i want to hug forever.

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 03:00:43 GMT

I need a change of scene.
Hopefully this is it.